a penny for your thoughts

I sit here feeling all of the weight of the world on my shoulders, wondering when things are going to get better so I can look up and see the sun. I'm a firm believer that when life gets us down its not so much a bad thing but more of a chance to learn something for the better and make us into what we will one day be. But sometimes its so hard to keep that out look. Its been one of those days where it feels like you have been holding your breath non stop, where I just feel so on edge and that just the slightest bit of wind will knock me over. But I keep going because I know that bad can only go for so long before everything no matter what it is starts seeming better than the current situation. But the worst of it seems to be coming from being completely broke. It sucks to see how much influence money has over someones life to where it makes us misserable. Money cant buy happiness but it certainly helps keep our spirits up. I dont want to be rich, i dont want a huge house I just want to be comfortable, I would love to be able to go out with friends with out wondering if i can afford it, I'd love to take out a girl at any time with having to wonder if its a probable or if i have to hope she stays single until next pay day. Id love to smoke a ciggarette and taste it, instead of tasting the staleness of each cent that its worth. But these things are inevitable and I accept it, but I think in these situations its deff better to look at the cup as half full because its a better value and I probably cant afford a refill.

=CoRy
A PENNY FOR YOUR THOUGHTS
by: Cory Payerli

I watch my money fly away
to be apart of someone elses happiness
for who evers pocket it resides is closer to a smile
a smile of falsness, but a falsness that keeps the mind happy
but soon the money flys again and continues the chain
whether it be a child who can buy some candy
a teen a car
an adult a beer, a home, a spouse, a future
or a bank power
but my pockets are empty
so i guess ill just look at the beauty of the world
at least thats free

a missing piece

Sometimes its peoples happiness that makes us feel the most sad. I think the reason that happens is because when people talk about certain things it makes us realize what we are missing and makes us all of a sudden feel incomplete. Or maybe its greed and we want what others have, but all i know is it's a shitty feeling. But all we can do is keep moving forward and maybe eventually find our own happiness because in todays world all we have is hope. So i Hope for everyone they find a little piece of happiness because sometimes we all just need an extra reason to smile. :)
=CoRy

I've opened the blinds so you may peak in

This is my first post so maybe I should start out by saying a few words about myself. Like the rest of the world I am a piece of shit, fueled by implanted dreams for money, fame, good looks, fast cars, having a perfect social life, dating the hottest girls etc etc. but what does set me apart from some is I've noticed these things, and honestly I have thrown all of it out the window and I want to connect with the world on a more mental level of things, to really open my eyes and walk away from the every day mind fuck that the world has to offer. But if you were to ask me who I am as of now I would have to tell you that my Name is Cory Jack Payerli, I am 20 years old and i am swimming in the ocean that is life with out a life jacket, once in a while my legs cramp up and I suck in some of that water but i just try and keep my calm and float about till I am fine again. I enjoy really listening to people, because when someone wants to be genuine with you about whats going on in their lives I think we owe it to them to really listen. because when we listen we learn, we think, we evolve and I say thats worth giving up a few minutes of my day instead of updating my status on facebook for the 13th time in a day. I love art of all kinds, and when my mind can think of something I also like to produce some of my own. Art has almost always existed so I find it to be a very important thing in life and its always fun to look at the world through someone elses eyes. Well thats all there pretty much is to me and I am really looking forward to writing my thoughts on things in this blog. I hope people may enjoy what i have to say and if not then thanks for reading what you did thus far.
=CoRy